Ok so its time for a little honesty around here.  I have been talking about how great Mamavation was (and believe me it was) there has been a downside as well.  For whatever reason after the campaign ended my eating disorder kicked back into high gear.  I don't know if it was the nature of weight in and pressure that I felt or maybe it was that I was working so hard and following a plan very strictly, or the stress of the end of a shitty school year but my mind went crazy.  Now thankfully I wasn't full on binging but there were days where I overate, there were a lot of times I ate crap, then felt like crap, then ate more crap because I felt like crap.  It is a viscous cycle and I hate it and often times this is very very hard to stop.  
I also need to make clear in no way am I blaming Mamavation that group I know has saved my life in terms of health.  I also know because of them and their support is the reason I have gotten back on track.  My good friend Julie (who is also my WW buddy) said hey being in the ditch is ok as long as it isn't the grand canyon.  So I decided that as of Thursday of last week that was it, I was getting my shit together and getting back on track.  I have committed to going to every weekly weight watchers meeting for the rest of the summer and doing my best to track my food.  I also am trying to get back into the forums and back on twitter to get some support and follow the new mom's in the campaign.

I am thankful though that throughout this I have continued training for 5k's (I did my first official last weekend I will post about that soon).  I think that is the reason that in 6 weeks I have only gained 5 pounds (not only but you know what I mean).  Also, I have only really gained like 3.5 of my Mamavation weight back because I lost some more after that so my WW weight is different.  I know it is confusing which is why I am going to just go with my WW weight from now on.  Its summer and my math skills are bad during the school year.

I just wanted to say I am so thankful to be part of the Mamavation community and that I have a great real life support group to help me through these times where I am in the ditch and I have lots of hands helping me out!  

Onward in my healthiness journey, have a great week people!
7 Responses
  1. lydsrich Says:

    I'm so glad you're a part of the group. It's ok to fall down now and again. The key is, you got up!!

  2. Anonymous Says:

    WE all go through the "low" points... Just remember, you gotta go through the valley to get to the top of the mountain...

    Have a great week

  3. We are glad you are apart of this group too! I've been in a ditch, we all have but I'm glad you are sticking with getting back on track! Congrats on your first 5K! I did one a few months back it was a lot of fun. *hugs*

  4. mom27g Says:

    You got this lady!!!!!

  5. Unknown Says:

    Good luck with getting back on track. We are always here to support you!

  6. Unknown Says:

    So glad you are working on getting back on track. We are here for you and will be every step of the way. You can do this!!!

  7. Hang in there- fell off the wagon and it has rolled over me too!

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